Starting Over

I felt like it was all over, but now I’ve decided to pull myself together and start over. Finishing senior year kind of knocked me flat. I keep thinking about my classmates, thinking about them, my friends, and it’s a real shame we didn’t get to be together more before. The week before last I went back, and they came to pick me up and took me out for breakfast, even though I’ve never done anything for them. A few of my friends have broken up with their girlfriends. It really is breakup season; everyone’s split. When a relationship is over, that’s just how it is. Sometimes I’m a bit lazy and don’t feel like blogging, so the posts end up really, really short. I’m on my own in Shanghai, taking care of myself. I’m heading back home in early July, so there’s less than a month left. This is the longest I’ve ever stayed in Shanghai: half a year. Honestly, there’s nothing fun about Shanghai. It’s just a place to spend money. Fun, my ass. So I used to run off to Wuxi every weekend, but now that we’ve broken up I don’t go to Wuxi anymore and just hole up in the dorm. I get along well with a few online friends, all people I met through blogging, like Hey33, Fengzi, Maozi, AL, Ajian, Xuanjing, nevermore, Brother Xiaoshan, Lao Wu and so on and so on. I hope that if we get the chance, we’ll meet up in person someday. I’m starting my life over. I’ve started listening to Eason Chan and Wong Ka Kui, I’ve started playing basketball, I’ve started studying properly. I’m starting over!