That Time of Night Again

For a whole month now I’ve been going to bed around this time. Well, technically it’s already yesterday, heh. Yesterday’s over and today has begun, and the first thing I do is write in my journal and then go to sleep. Tomorrow I have two more exams. As for exams, all I can say is they’re pointless. I won’t say more, or I’ll end up on politics again, heh. These days whatever I talk about, I end up talking about politics. I should change that attitude. One day it could cost me my neck, and then I wouldn’t be able to chase my dreams. These past few days I’ve sort of been catching up on winter break homework, though not entirely, just reading and scribbling a bit. There’s nothing worth writing in the winter break homework, and I really hate that stuff. I never properly learned the material in the middle school textbooks, and I’ve forgotten so, so much, even the stuff I knew… forget it. I’ll just study English and computers properly. I absolutely have to pass the written part of the Level 2 C++ exam in March! Go, me. Yesterday I got the few books I bought. They’re all great, totally worth it: Meditations and The Republic. I have to read them carefully. The Republic is entirely in English, uh~~ looks like it’ll take me a while. Anyway, I need firm goals and a free will! That’s something I got from Meditations, learning it and putting it to use right away. Actually, I originally wanted to study humanities and go into politics. Thinking about it now I have some regrets, but I think it was worth it. Throwing away a worthless life to do something impossible, I feel that’s not quite worth it. It doesn’t seem to live up to the value of my life. OK, that’s it, done writing. Wishing myself sweet dreams! I still remember that sweet dream from February. Day by day, I keep walking my journey…